That Feeling

What if I could explain that feeling to you? But what if I'm scared I'll regret it. What if I told you that I threw something in there, just to throw you off. What if I told you I might just might, feel the need to throw around that word. What is it again? Oh yeah, love.
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ColorMeCrazy (8:48:39 PM): i'm thinking
Marc-y Marc (8:48:42 PM): about?
ColorMeCrazy (8:48:53 PM): i feel like I want to tell you something but I seriously have no clue what
Marc-y Marc (8:49:00 PM): alright XD
Marc-y Marc (8:50:47 PM): tell me if you remember
Marc-y Marc (8:50:49 PM): :P
ColorMeCrazy (8:50:59 PM): it's not something i forgot
ColorMeCrazy (8:51:10 PM): it's that feeling in the pit of my stomach
Marc-y Marc (8:51:24 PM): oh
Marc-y Marc (8:51:26 PM): hmm
Marc-y Marc (8:51:30 PM): well, if you ever figure it out
Marc-y Marc (8:51:33 PM): you can tell me anything
ColorMeCrazy (8:53:25 PM): i no
ColorMeCrazy (8:53:31 PM): idk what i'm thinking
Marc-y Marc (8:53:47 PM): :P
ColorMeCrazy (8:54:18 PM): my thigh hurts. now i know what i'm thinking, train of thought, idk, flying pigs, make a wish
Marc-y Marc (8:54:32 PM): o-o
ColorMeCrazy (8:54:39 PM): dandelions, blow on one, but don't tell me it might not come true
ColorMeCrazy (8:54:45 PM): truth is crap
ColorMeCrazy (8:54:54 PM): the best part of believe is the lie
ColorMeCrazy (8:55:06 PM): it's not lying if you're just no telling the whole truthe
ColorMeCrazy (8:55:09 PM): **truth
ColorMeCrazy (8:55:12 PM): blogging
ColorMeCrazy (8:55:18 PM): why don't i understand this
Marc-y Marc (8:55:26 PM): understand what?
ColorMeCrazy (8:55:32 PM): why accept a hug from her and not your sister
ColorMeCrazy (8:55:37 PM): who is she, this other girl
ColorMeCrazy (8:55:42 PM): what am i talking about
Marc-y Marc (8:55:48 PM): who are you talking about?
Marc-y Marc (8:55:50 PM): Names!
ColorMeCrazy (8:56:01 PM): scream me a love song, pouring rain
ColorMeCrazy (8:56:05 PM): ahhhh blabbering
ColorMeCrazy (8:56:26 PM): uh, my brother, my friend in the hug sentence and idk in the one after it
Marc-y Marc (8:56:31 PM): ah o-o
ColorMeCrazy (8:57:16 PM): yeah
ColorMeCrazy (8:57:24 PM): ah, i don't know anymore

Yet I can't bring myself to spit out the truth. Why am I even writing this if I know you'll read it...? I feel like going outside and sprinting. But I need a hill, it's more work and takes more out of me. My knees often get this weak feeling, but it's weird, it makes me feel like I need to run. I don't know why. The last time this happened, I sprinted up and down a hill for at least 15 minutes. Then I went inside, wrote a song and sent it off to someone. I poured out my heart. It wasn't a love song. It wasn't meant to be one anyway. I know you got it. I have friends in high places, or maybe they were just the ones that gave it to you. I know what your reaction was. Yet I feel so guilty. I told Matt that I was scared I might be in love with that kid. Well guess what, I'm not It was a simple mistake. I don't know, what it was. But that's the reason I'm so scared to actually be in love, now. How do I know if I'm in love. How come I feel the need to talk to you every second of every day. We met, what, last week? Or maybe two weeks ago. And still we talk every day. It's getting harder, you know, this feeling in the

PIT OF MY STOMACH

. I know I mentioned it to you, but as said before

When words fail, music speaks.

Although, this time, I'm not sure if there's anything to describe how I feel. How I hope you feel.
Oh god, I hope you feel this too.