Friday, September 12, 2008

What if...

What if I tried to explain everything to you?
well I can't, I've tried. My voice tends to fail and my hands tend to sweat. Sometimes I choke on the idea of understanding myself.

I love thinking about the future, hate the past, and am often confused about the present.

I've been venting to a few of my best friends lately, and truth is, idk how much it's helping.
It won't change the fact that I still think about you.
am scared to be with him
and horrified when the word love comes up

We're not dating, and I don't plan on doing it soon. Although he's adorable and I really like him,
there are other things too.
plus, I can't just dump all these thoughts of you.

For some reason I can't explain why I did what I did. I'm constantly questioning it, and I wish I could take it back.

I'm scared.

Who will be here to hold me through the cold nights, if you're not going to accept all my "sorry" ' s. What if I really do love you...?

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