hush little baby don't you cry, mama's gonna sing you a lullaby[liee]

i have a very...different opinion on love than the rest of the world,
and i feel that's it's only in the love i have...almost experienced.

Love is a lullaby, but it's a hidden lie
a trap
you fall in to a deep, gossamer slumber,
your thoughts are clouded by the nostalgic hums
but when you wake up
it's all gone
never there to begin with
like the Sirens have finally captured your heart with their singing,
it's too late to turn back, you've already hit rock bottom.

It's actually quite comfy down here, especially to be sitting on rocks.



the funny thing is,
I can predict my own tragedy
my own downfall
after all I'm Cassandra
that's what I do.
I know I'm alone,
I know because that's who I am.
ALONE.
I can't reach the stars,
they're just a tad to dim,
just out of reach,
these syrup-dipped songs keep lifting me back to sleep,
and we all know.
Miss Distress cannot touch the stars,
at least not without her prince


xx oo

lalalie__lalalalie

i don't want to be alone.
please don't leave me.

letting go.

I'm sorry for being so immature.
I'm sorry for missing what I never had what was "never yours"
and I can't, apologize more, I would never want to hold you back.
I'll learn to let go.

to let go.
to let go.

I'll learn to breath again.

and I, guess I acted without thinking I'm sorry for being
so callow, naive, I guess that's just me.
And even though you were not there
even when you did not see my stares.
I'll still feel guilty

no one was watching and I should have stopped me.

I should be able to let go,
I'm learning to breath again.
I am now able to let go,
I will not fall for you.

Maybe we'll share a smile or two
but that's just me and you
no us just friends no love...not lovers
Staying up and talking till the early hours
we'll hold each other's hands like a tricycle has it's training wheels
but we're gonna let go

to let go
to let go

I am breathing now
breathing cause it's necessary
but breathing still
filling my lungs up with life.

Hold me tight,
tight,
through this last night.
I can breath on my own.
I'm letting go

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give me

give me a reason to breath
tell me you need me
even if it's a lie
lie to me
tell me you love me
i don't love you
i'm lying.

write me a song

Photograph each day so we can live forever. I sit in the light to make the dark a little darker and I dance to move only you and I fight to kiss and make up. I scream for some silence. I laugh to laugh for once, not there so you notice I'm gone and I breathe cuz its neccessary and I sigh when I see the moon. I dream to make sleep less boring.. until there was you and I feel in the absence of heart and I plug my eyes to cry. I'm a hopeless romantic and kicking the habit but all hearts have darts.

-Automatic Loveletter Unhearted

**sigh**


I'm sorry, I didn't think this would be so hard...

forever blue

new look and feel
to match my mood

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i cannot help the fact that i am missing you
forever blue
my heart sheds tears
for each waking moment you are not here.
i'll try to hold on
but each time i try to sleep
they come back to haunt me
these nightmares
reminding me that you're gone.
i'll wait for you, but i cannot wait forever

you could

give me a dictionary
give me the definition for every single word.
ever.

i could stay up and read until after the early hours
searching
because i'm awake anyway

and i'd never find a word
not one simple little word

to describe how i feel.

don't

do not blame yourself.



i'm stronger than this.
I just need to fake realize it

ask me a question

you ask why i'm lonely
why i'm shaking all over

i can't utter a word
i can not
i'm not even going to try and talk about it.


i'm gonna go
like now
i can't do this anymore.

I know that the second i turn on the shower, I'll start to cry
because no one will be able to hear it over the water

shaking

how do you get it to stop?

definition

i looked up the definition of heartbroken. it said:

adjective. (of a person) suffering from overwhelming distress; very upset: he was heartbroken at the thought of leaving the house.

funny, it doesn't mention love.
it's probably for the sake of people like me.

even funnier, it mentioned the word distress.
which has become very, common to me.




except, in the end.
I'm not heartbroken.
I'm happy, because I said I'd be if you were.

and how good can something that's
everything you could have hope for...but better
be?



perfect for you.
and that's what matters
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the day.

there's cold french toast on the table
a full moon hanging overhead
she's stuck in that room
where you've locked her up
and thrown away the key to her heart.

she waiting, waiting on a prince,
hoping that one day
one fine day.

her food will finally be warm,
and she'll fall asleep with sweet dreams
with sweet dreams.
she'll feel safe,
because his arms
will be wrapped around
her heart.
that'll be the day.

So hop on your horse
and command your armies
this cold blank cell
is like a plague to her heart.
She never wanted to be the damsel
but right now she's in distress.

there's cold french toast on the table
a full moon hanging overhead
she's stuck in that room
where you've locked her up
and thrown away the key to her heart.

she waiting, waiting on a prince,
hoping that one day
one fine day.

her food will finally be warm,
and she'll fall asleep with sweet dreams
with sweet dreams.
she'll feel safe,
because his arms
will be wrapped around
her heart.
that'll be the day.

so hang on every word.
don't forget her smile,
look into her eyes
and know it's right
you know you're right

i'll feel safe,
because your arms
will be wrapped around
my heart.
that'll be the day.

lets make this the day,
this is our day.

how...?

how do you hide
how you feel
for the most important person in your life?

how can you ignore
the nagging love
for you close friend?

how do you get by
when you can't even tell
the one you trust the most
how you feel
because it's for him?



oh lordy, i hate this.
i hate liking you.
you're happy.
i don't want to like you.
i don't want to take away your happiness.
you love her.
y'all have my blessing or whatever, i hope it works out.
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