about you

those butterflies,
yeah, I get them all the time.
and when you speak to me,
well, my palms start to sweat like crazy.
when you stare me down,
with your deep dark eyes,
I wonder is you can hear my heartbeat
I love it when you hug me,
and adore the smile you get when you see me.

Boy, don't you see how I'm Falling Fast For You.

confusion • ∞

to infinity and beyond
hold my heart,
hold your tongue.
Don't sweep me off my feet,
this world's not big enough for me and you.
Your silly drivel,
won't change my mind,
not this time...no baby, not this time
Each curse from your lips,
as you try to reprogram my heart.
I'm not falling down that hole again,
I'm more comfortable at home.
So get out of my bed
my head
my whole life.
I'd prefer you stayed
but if you can't handle this then no.

speak.

would you speak to me?
if I spoke first.
would you look at me?
if I tried to gain your attention.
Would you love me?
if I loved you back.

sometimes, trying just isn't enough

fuck

this is all just a bunch of shit that I can't take anymore.
I don't think I'm gonna go out with either of you.
plus i have a billion tests coming up
and we have that huge meeting tonight

I really can't hold on to it
but what was I holding on to?
the thought maybe...idk


:(

What if...

What if I tried to explain everything to you?
well I can't, I've tried. My voice tends to fail and my hands tend to sweat. Sometimes I choke on the idea of understanding myself.

I love thinking about the future, hate the past, and am often confused about the present.

I've been venting to a few of my best friends lately, and truth is, idk how much it's helping.
It won't change the fact that I still think about you.
am scared to be with him
and horrified when the word love comes up

We're not dating, and I don't plan on doing it soon. Although he's adorable and I really like him,
there are other things too.
plus, I can't just dump all these thoughts of you.

For some reason I can't explain why I did what I did. I'm constantly questioning it, and I wish I could take it back.
idk

I'm scared.





Who will be here to hold me through the cold nights, if you're not going to accept all my "sorry" ' s. What if I really do love you...?